The road curves uphill,
at a sudden turn
the snow on the Dhauladhara blinks
under the setting sun
What would the eternal do without your mandatory
desire for another display?
cropped, beautified, shared?
but for the glitch..
Above the still winding road,
intrusive cables criss cross against the sky,
taut, electrical,
hanging and communcative
between the lens and the wired skyline, there’s the
mountain breeze, elusive and
beyond capture
Their naked skins are tainted with ochre mud,
shaken dry in the sun,
after a life trapped
in the moist darkness of forests
Above the six-lane convinence, they hurry fumbling
towards the bazaar
Bundles of shearing hours tick ahead
on beleaguered trucks
like bushy trees
tired of battling hope
each season
Indomitable insolence
shredded down to your level
and mine
Despite the clear instructions
given to that fool,
old newspapers lie scattered in the evening sun,
waiting for the night to fall, pale faced,
drenched by unseasonal showers.
the blurred front pages,
the still life of turning points in
people’s lives,
their battles for success,
name, fame, and your attention.
the sensex, gold rates, the number still feared dead in
the recent landslide,
the celebrity’s baby.
you have seen it, been there.
it’s time to check the water tank,
the supply is erratic in summer…
and the plumber is your philosophical guy,
works by inspirational,
not your desperation cues.
the shelves look askance, ransacked by rodents
of a superior race, not a memory left,
or a grain, or the taste of the wire box,
to call your own..
but order some food,
online.
across the green and reds of neighborhood roofs, and
the added floors
the peaks, and the snow, and the frenzied hands of the
setting sun race for time,
before locking up of doors,
and darkness.
there was this friend who looked around in abeyance,
what dance? it’s
barbaric..
which explains why the repetitive displays of jubilation
frightened her
it might not have any age, she laughed, glancing at
poetry by grey haired poets,
but it has a season..
the remains are seeds, or timber
or medication, sealed,
to be stored in damp, dark places
when she hung herself
it was hours before daylight
the dilapidated house, dwarfed by a more sensible
neighborhood,
is guarded by Taaya ji’s unreasonable Will,
like the surly,
angry ferns clambering up its front door.
who will go to live there, now?
not friends, not extended family, not the children, god
forbid.
on the spaces around it, the monkeys still leap noisily
from trees to newly barbed balconies,
and munch on stolen food.
it’s going to be tough, wading through the byways.
forest department, corporation offices, contractors,
courts, the rapidly expanding demands, the rising
costs of everything under the sun, except your
patience…
it’ll need a lot,
time and drudgery and disagreeable encounters to
clear the hassles, and the paper work.
those rare early mornings, when something awakens
me before sunrise, the thik-thik of his walking stick
halts midway, and he looks back from the hill to listen
to tiny birds twittering in the valley
vacation begins
when the hills appear,
sunsets and sunrise happen,
and the air
unfurls her hair.
when it’s time to draw out things, grimy from disuse;
tumblers and bowls,
cookers and spoons;
to throw the windows open,
to hang out the quilts..
when the neighborhood drops in with the latest news:
four days… for full four days,
the water supply got cut
because the tree on the crossing, bent on its side for
years, decided enough was enough;
bang on the pipeline it threw its head.
together in the evenings we take the long walk,
except that it’s shorter now:
shared cabs run throughout the day, they even slow
down
and call out for a ride,
right upto the village
baoli
before you enter the city,
you will see,
many hands wave,
many smiles switch on,
heads tilting sideways in
obsequious greeting.
and if you slow down,
the card thrust under your nose like a miniature menu
will promise comforts like home, miles and miles away
from it;
at a price, ofcourse, what else?
But with the baccha log, and the hangovers of office
cubicles,
a few more thousands,
does it matter?
just soak in the nectar of the wind rushing down your
lungs, the clear skies,
clouds rising up the valley
fill your insides with the alacrity of a new birth..
it’s all here, the spirit of the wild, right at your
doorsteps;
feel the flaming dusk,
the pristine silence;
reconnect.
his fingers rise up in salute, tossing away the bidi stub
that smells like hell.
with a bow he takes the tip
and prepares to go;
It’s a beautiful place to live, I say conversationally,
your home in the hills,
he laughs,
his own home in the village is far away, more beautiful,
much kinder…
and your family? I gently smile;
three boys, no, they don’t go to school, they don’t,
wife works in houses,
keeps the kitchen fire
burning.
he’s as much of an outsider
as anyone, a tourist who works, he laughs, for his
meals
I contemplate, maybe a bigger currency..
but he already nodded a good bye,
already waved to the kids shouting excitedly in the
lawns,
his gaze already foreign,
our eyes did not meet even once.
realign
with the mighty universe , the magnificence of its
presence.
at the end of the day
we are but mortals,
no different from the one who, wrapped up in a
blanket, waits for baksheesh.
the pamphlet in my hands offers so much,
sights and views:
amazing mansions,
deodar woods,
red roofs and green,
plums and apples from the finest orchards,
pure pashmina,
the yaks,
and the ponies.
that’ll make a lot of memories to love and share,
before you leave the city
The crossing of the bridge that’s been put off for this
long,
it’s not going to be easy.
Not when the sun is at its worst and I have inched
towards seventy.
There’s a tick off for every habit, or obsessive anxiety,
did you lock up the door?
Like the other milestones I can remember,
this too looks suspicious, and non-invasive, just a bit
customized.
Uncoiling takes long,
let’s find simpler ways to snap off
from gathering logs
and the drill of detachment.
Like the other milestones I can remember,
this too looks suspicious, and non-invasive, just a bit
customized.
Life is the sniffing beast
that bends its head over a sapling just sprouted from
my grave.
A single sunray, equally inquisitive,
or predatory,
races for time behind other headstones.
But maybe,
the little hand holding
could help.
In the residences above the shops,
girls lean on windows,
their nose rings flashing in the sun.
she too would’ve been a young woman now,
in gold danglers and bangles,
and the toothy smile recognizable in the framed
photos at her father’s shop…
shopkeepers had blocked the way for days,
temple bells lay silent,
pedestrians choose to walk a circuitous route.
Bouliganj Road
I fell in love with it,
the road in Bouliganj,
some thirty or more years ago,
and it was, if you please,
all wrapped up at first sight.
simply because
it looked moody,
and wayward,
impulsive
and cold;
a dark river,
that paused at the very first crossroad,
then raced down past people at the bus stop,
and thumb sucking infants at the yellow walled
dispensary.
the home grown lattice wood doorways stood
watching from the sides, and discarded colonial
benches
waited for weekends.
But where was the time for nostalgia,
or room showpieces..
from the narrow pavement,
jute sacks wet with vegetables,
held on to the greens and browns and reds and
purples that tumbled out to stare at it’s gentle fall,
past oil stained canisters in the friendly neighborhood
eatery.
the pharmacist kept a watch on the goings on,
counted the cash and folded aluminum
strips of pop eyed medicine,
and shooed away the adolescent
who calculated that twenty sleep pills
would end his pains
crossroads send feelers, but
the road that went down
forgoes the tributary less taken,
it returns sometimes, breathless, thirty years older,
sweating at the back,
past the Bouliganj police station,
without a permit
in love and in grief
vacation begins
when the hills appear,
sunsets and sunrise happen,
and the air
unfurls her hair.
when it’s time to draw out things, grimy from disuse;
tumblers and bowls,
cookers and spoons;
to throw the windows open,
to hang out the quilts..
when the neighborhood drops in with the latest news:
four days… for full four days,
the water supply got cut
because the tree on the crossing, bent on its side for
years, decided enough was enough;
bang on the pipeline it threw its head.
together in the evenings we take the long walk,
except that it’s shorter now:
shared cabs run throughout the day, they even slow
down
and call out for a ride,
right upto the village
baoli
Dr. Kumkum Yadav is a distinguished scholar and poet.
Known for her profound contributions to English literature,
She is a renowned academic with over 42 years of teaching
experience and 9 years dedicated to research in prestigious
literary institutions. She completed her M.A. in English from
Delhi University in 1976, followed by an M.Phil. in 1982. Her
academic journey reached its pinnacle with a Ph.D. from
Jamia Millia Islamia University in 1994.